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Belah for the first time asked "I want to watch cartoons"
she is the sweetest daughter! I love her so much. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[26 Mar 2010|05:30pm] |
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Stomach ache/cramps for like two weeks already :( Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[07 Aug 2009|11:42am] |
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing things right. Now I just have to do things that are right for me from now on! Belah is turning 2 on sept 8th. No big party this year. I just want to make her favorite foods and let her dance and eat cake!
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[08 Apr 2009|03:00pm] |
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| Go-Quiz.com Personality Cocktail |
[05 Nov 2008|05:35pm] |
| How to make a color_midnight |
Ingredients:
3 parts intelligence
3 parts ambition
3 parts energy |
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of lovability and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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[29 May 2008|01:53pm] |
It's a really windy day today. The baby is down for a nap. I got good news, I recieved somethng in the mail reguarding school. It seems that I qualify for a cal grant C, which is for those of use choosing a trade or occupation in school. I am super happy about that. But since I can only fill out this paper once and not be able to make changes later. I better be sure that I can get into paul mitchell school. If not then I am going to go to school at Goldenwest College in HB. Plus there is a time period to turn this document in, a month. So I better hurry and turn this thing in. AHHHHHH!! Since becoming a mom, I haven't exactly put my needs above hers. I suppose that is normal eh? But this is for that both of us. I know that I can be successful at being a hairstylist. I know I got that something that would make it more than just an ordinary hairdresser at fantastic sams...but we all have to start somewhere I guess.
I just want to make money and enjoy doing it.
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[26 May 2008|12:10pm] |
so I only have one dog now, and it isn't skurvvy my black wiener dog.
anyways, i still haven't applied to school. I am just missing one thing for the application, my pictures.
I have been really bored lately. I need to think of some activities to do with Belah.
Oh well. xo
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[02 Sep 2007|04:49pm] |
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Today has been so hot. It's really unbearable. It's almost 5 now and my room is still hot. I'm so sweaty!! omg omg!! please kill me someone!
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[29 Aug 2007|06:05pm] |
Things are starting to get on track, I just really need to grow some testicles and force him to make a decision in reguards to living in this pig style mess hole of a house without me or move somewhere clean and safe with me.
Rehab is coming along smooth. Infact, my couselor says at the this rate and considering everything is on target as far as my "recovery" is going, I could be done in three more months as oppose to 5 more months!!! I'm super excited. Then I can put my focus back into school and a part time job.
I'm pretty excited about everything falling into place and the timing is getting better.
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[29 May 2007|09:09pm] |
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We were supposed to be out by june 1st but with no idea where to go and not enough money that is likely not going to happen. I just told him that he ruined my life. but i didn't mean it, i looked at him just now and i think i hurt his feelings...time for damage control.
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| I'm no sara lee |
[26 May 2007|12:26pm] |
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the cookies came out ok...some were a bit too crunchy while others were just right.
I decieded that I want to get into the field of being a vet tech(animals). I super love my dogs and most every other animal..although possums are kinda gross and dangerous so I have to say I don't love them. But I can only apply after my fucken program. So I am crossing my fingers and hoping I get in within the next week or so. It takes so long to get into a program, I have been on probation for a year now and should have already finished this shit but to no avail. I am going to ask my probation officer if I can do and outpatient program but if not then so be it.
If the vet tech thing isn't enough pay then I must go do some medical billing class and go that route which is a nice second then I can go back to college.
Those there are my plans short term I guess.
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[24 May 2007|02:39pm] |
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I am pretty excited about what's cooking! I'm baking peanut butter cookies. yeah they are the quick make kind. But none the less they are just what my sweet tooth desires. yummy. I'm pretty sure henry will be happy about coming home from work with some cookies.
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[11 May 2007|12:52pm] |
Yeah I've been really tired lately. I guess it's because of the lack of stimulation. Honestly, the tranqulity of my life is rather enjoyable. But sometime soon I hope for things to get stirred up in a good way. Henry got a promotion to assitant manager in the meat department at vons. Good I guess. He likes to run things...or something. No not really. But yeah.
My weiners have a date with my friend danielle's two wieners. yeah!
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[15 Apr 2007|02:27pm] |
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My favorite thing on a sunday is the all beatles on 95.9fm. That really made me smile when I was driving home from dropping off henry at work. yeah. Super big. I have to admit that i love john lennon.
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[14 Apr 2007|08:33pm] |
I am not sure if this is a waste of time, I mean the whole gambling thing. I like to get the scratchers "the big spin" and today I bought a ticket for super lotto plus and one mega number. But I have yet to win more than $10 bucks and free tickets on the scratchers.
I have ocd. So I am happy with this answer that no I am not really wasting my time. I know I am lame.
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| Dogs are a girls best friends |
[12 Apr 2007|06:55pm] |
Well, my dog pulled through his surgical procedure of having his testicals removed and is okay. I feel awful for him because he has to have the cylinder collar on for two weeks. But I'm glad I finally got it done. He wasn't behaving well, and was having a hard time focusing and listening to Henry and myself.
It's really annoying that he keeps sniffing my puppies bum! So hopefully he will behave from now on!
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[11 Apr 2007|07:29pm] |
I went to the psych doctor yesterday and he prescribed lithium and xanax. now the xanax helps me with my anxiety but due to circumstances out of my control i will not be able to try out the lithium.
I don't know. I guess it's good that I will be getting my meds and it's even better that I am not using any drugs or drinking "socially".
I am tired of being in Long beach. ugh!! There really isn't anything to do here when you aren't a beach person or into the bar scene. haha! At one point I was in the "bar scene" but not here in the LBC in the city of angels/ hollywood. I am glad I am starting to use this thing again.
It will be a release...it's not like blogging on myspace...because too many people can read my shit on there and I don't exactly feel comfortable writing on there. Meh!
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[08 Apr 2007|04:32pm] |
Things aren't as crazy as I thought they might be. I go into the program this month for my probation. Because fuck going to jail. Fer serious.
I am coming up on 60 days full on sobriety. GO ME! There are tons more going on with me, but seeing how I've been sick for about a week and a half I will update later.
What else? I found the "love" of my life. Funny. We are so much alike it's scary and makes me laugh a whole lot. He is only 5 years older than I am. He is a gemini and I an aquarius! A perfect match is what they say. His name is henry.
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[01 Feb 2007|10:13pm] |
rehab here i come.
well, from my old ass coke using entries i guess i wasn't far from it then. But now i am not nearly in the same boat. sucks i guess. this court ordered program.
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| Indifferent to the mundane |
[08 Nov 2006|10:34pm] |
It's funny when I think about how far I've come. What I mean to say is that for some who do take me seriously I use to be this uptight girl. I wouldn't partake in drinking and no drugs of anysort. I refused my meds all throughout highschool. I would have been a bit more sane towards my then boyfriend and that would be the extent that they(meds) would have helped me. Moving on though, I have had alot of fun from then to now. And it seems to be at a halt, no doubt because I am the one holding myself back.
I can't help but be aware of the responsibilities that I need to take care of and if I go out and do the things that come my way, I know that I will have a blatant disreguard for my responsibilities. I can't help that. I love to live in the moment, not fuck off my future of course not. But I have and will always live up to my own standards and have no regrets. I love that if things go wrong I can only blame my self for making the choices that I have made. But there have been times in my life that my surroundings are imperative to the equation and therefor hold a sort of influence to my decision making.
What I do know is that when I get out of this situation that I am currently in...where I am prohibited from doing what ale's me. I honestly can say that I am revolted at the thought that I am restricted, only because I know that I make fairly good decisions. I am only human and I admit that I may slip up from time to time and make stupid rash decisions and that is when I lean myself and I learn myself good. I don't like fucking myself. haha
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